Update

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Update

I need a new city. This one has lousy fishing.
fishing with my right hand throwing them back with my left
another one caught another one not good enough
Maybe its me and not the fish
my pole is too long... not long enough
Maybe I'm in the wrong river.
Maybe I need a lake.


Happy day bloggers
I so need a new job I am over the one I have. New plan of action fill out a new application every day until I'm somewhere else. Weight... do we even have to go there... lets not.. really people it's bad, maybe I'll have better news in a week. Found a new workout buddy I think this one is a keeper, we shall see. It is so hard to find someone who will actually workout .. not that I need a partner if I want this I can do it all by myself, but company is nice. Love update... read above... something is just not working for me there bloggers. I just want a honest cute, smart, tall, guy to spend some time with, get to know, get married to, have sex with, and have a baby with that's all ....where is he universe. Life update... sick of school but it is a mission I must complete, I need a new place, a fun-cation and than a vacation, and I need my friends to jump on the not lame, fun train.   *My smile is in place


Same day a little later
New plan II
I need to find a church bloggers. A for real church where people believe in GOD and aren't just there for show. A church where people are living everyday like it's Sunday and not drunk, cussing and partying up until it's time to go to church and than again after the sermon is over. 

All or Nothing

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All or Nothing

Dating is hard bloggers, really it is. Recently a friend of mine went out with this dude and she found herself questioning weather or not he was honest. Well at the time I didn't give it much thought because quite frankly I could care less if the dudes I have been dating lately are honest or not. (I haven't liked any of them beyond a few dates) So there was no wondering or asking myself 'Is this dude 4real?' Well I find myself thinking about my friend right now and how she feels about trusting men.
Relationships have not at all been easy or kind to me. I don't think that all men are going to cheat or lie but I do think that it is hard to determine if you are dating a honest guy. Right now I'm asking myself that question. When it comes to relationships and men I have learned to take everything at face value until I am shown otherwise. .. and believe me when I say it doesn't take much for me to see that a guy who looks to be a nice honest guy isn't. Another thing that I have learned bloggers is that sex makes it very difficult to see a lie coming or to recognize a cheater. It is so important to just get to know the person you're dating before even thinking about being intimate with them. It makes it easier to break up with them and so simple to leave when you find out he's not what he claims. I'm not giving advice with this blog I'm just reminding myself why I'm not in nor have been in a sexual relationship in years. It is so very easy to let yourself fall into lust but it's never worth it to give your all only to watch him walk away later.





2nd VERSE

No need for love
Unless it’s Mr. oh, Mr. Right
And only because
Mixin’ lust with love only mean a fight
‘Cuz there’ll be dues to pay
And most of all many sleepless nights
But that won't be today, no
Guess I’ll see ya, love, it’s been nice
Until then...

Recycled ex

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Recycled ex

So I recently hung out with an ex and well I don't know if the single life is getting to me but I kinda was ummm feeling him? lol the crazy thing is that I was never that into him. I mean we dated for 6 months and the whole time I was just ....killing time. sad I know, but sometimes a girl needs to get flowers, go to dinner and a movie....With a Man (sorry bestie but you know). Lately I have been feeling more Ms. Mieka (33 lbs will do that) and I think that its the confidence more than anything but the dudes are in my face HARD and it's crazy to  me that I have looked to the past for  a date. I don't know bloggers I am definitely going to explore the possibility of an ex becoming a now.

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I don't think so brotha man

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I don't think so brotha man

"that ones to stupid to keep"

I've written quite a bit about relationships, love, and crazy dudes. Well I have to revisit the subject. I recently met a guy... gave him my number took his ... blah blah blah same old song and dance. Well after the first conversation I was almost certain that NOTHING was going to happen with that, he was very cute but lacking brain power. Knowing that I can sometimes be ummmm just a little selective and not easy to please when it comes to men, I decided to give him another chance. WHY BLOGGERS WHY? Well I know why, it's because I'm single and I know that I don't want to be this way forever. One day I want to revisit the land of "in love" and than (after the ring and all that jazz) I would love to revisit the land of sex. But back to Mr. ewwwww. To just shorten the story he wanted sex, lots of it and different varieties... WITH ME WHOM HE KNOWS NOT AT ALL. Yall I'm not being naive I know that men want sex but I'm just so over some of the nasty, stupid things men say. I am not willing to randomly 'hook' up with some unknown dude hoping that it will turn into a relationship. According to new research someone in America becomes infected with AIDS every 9 minutes. That is huge numbers. When a new guy starts to talk sex really early I can't get pass it EVER. If I ever talk to him again all I can think about is the fact that he wanted to sleep with me up front, no questions asked, and that he may be infected. Maybe this sounds a little crazy to some but when you know the rate that people are dying from STDs you know that it's a very real thing. ...  anyway on to the next guy and next date.....

My kind of man...cocky

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My kind of man...cocky

I like cocky men. Men who walk into every room like they own that room. Nothing else then a confident man for me will do. One of my biggest pet peeves is an insecure man ... I mean hunni if you ain't got it then you betta fake it til you make it. That's really how I feel. I have never dated an insecure man for longer then a second ...well there was that one time... he lasted about two months before I told him it just wasn't working for me. I'm not mean yall. I'm just like many of you ..I know what I want ...and nothing else will do. I have dated men who were cocky about their face, their body... both lol... men who were cocky about their ummm yeah that lol, even men who were cocky about their intellect. The only cocky men I seem to have an issue with are the ones who seem to be a lil bit too much into the amount of money they make or how many cars they have... I always feel as if they see a for sale sign on me somewhere...and sorry hun there's not ...
I was kinda into this lil dude ..ummm not even a year ago...sooo freaking cute ...I mean I know I'm pretty but "is he talking to me" sexy lol.. when I tell you brother man had no confidence ... I mean it was crazy ...
I should mention that I don't mean over the top cocky but ... he just have an air of "I'm the man" surrounding him. oooooh yall that is so my kind of man.

dating... shhh

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dating... shhh

I decided after my last relationship ... or rather "dating thing" lol that I wouldn't let my family meet the guy until I was more sure about the dude. .. and that still stands. I'm not even telling my bff b/c I think she pick and choose who she tell me about so this time its all me, no one else whispering in my ear about how cute he is or what a good man he seems to be.. Not doing that again.
My family tends to think that as long as a man has a good job then hes a good man, throw in a college degree and you have a winner who's a possible husband. I have come to find that to be VERY untrue. Take one of my exs for example.. H e had a job and went to work every day. He never called out. Problem? He had no ambition not an ounce of it he was completely ok with making $7 an hour and living with a family member, I couldn't understand it, and still don't. I mean why not go out and get more, he wouldn't even go for a better paying job when he had the chance... like I said no ambition. My family loved him after all he was nice and very respectful. My aunt has been telling me what a good man he is for the past 2 years even though she don't know him and if the roles were reversed she wouldn't even smile his way. My friend understands what I'm talking about but she really has no opinion on him. I dated him for about 6-7 months. We are still friends.
Another guy I was dating had a career not JUST a job and not one but two college degrees. No need to say my family thought he was the best thing since sliced bread. THE dude was a psycho. I mean completely crazed..lol.. it's funny now but at the time it was really scary. He kinda just fell really hard for me tooo fast. I knew smething was up right away, told the family and they woluld not hear it at all. They were in love even if I wasn't. My aunt convinced me that I didn't know what was best for me (meaning him) and I listened to her. I shouldn't have. The man was off his rocker. By the end of the relationship I was literally afraid of him. He didn't hit me or anything like that but his emotions were over whelming...We dated for 5-6 months
I'm so happy I was smart enough to not sleep with either of them and that I'm not at all easy. The psyco would have lost it all the way lol.
This time aroud I'm keeping it to myself.