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Ok people so a..humm what so call her... a classmate of mine recently told me that she checked herself into a mental institution... Yes really. She isn't living there but she now has to see a psychologist and take some medication. Wired... at least to me. She also told me that she has head voices .... really freaking wired. So ok bloggers here's where I'm at on this whole situation in case you didn't catch it. FREAKIN WHAT IS UP!!? I'm all about helping people bloggers ..I'm not at all a selfish person.... moody..yes.. bossy..lol yes... and as friends and family keep telling me lately maybe a bit of a witch.. well maybe that should be a b.... But still not selfish. But I just really can't help someone who's hearing voices...that is just beyond the bounds of friendship, at least for me. Floating voices that only you can hear.. I can't help you with .. so now we are at an impasse how do you tell... or rather in my case no longer invite convo to... someone in need? tell that person you can't speak to them anymore?.. It sounds harsh yall I know but what happens when this voice tells her to 'do harm to Pamieka'.... No I don't think so... I mean I always thought that was some white people crap (no offense ..really) only ya black behind is now saying that a voice told you to break the law ummm I'm sorry but I can't play with it...

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OMG!! ...REALLY?

ok first for the OMG... I had a job interview today. My worst fear..besides not getting the job was that I would be ready to go and my car wouldn't work ..well surprise surprise it freakin worked..and I think the interviews went well. Now they will do the background check and my last interview and I'm in... *cross your fingers* I really want this job really really really really!! and I really need it ...so send up a prayer for me bloggers.
So now for the Really?... after working to go across town and coming back home I was feeling really good about Baby (thats my car). I was so hopeful that all was now well even though I have only had a oil change and even after that I had some problems.. So I come home sit for a while ...change for class, walk out to Baby ..... And freakin nothing I mean NOTHING!! it is making noise but it won't freakin GO...it just dies after a second.
People I so need my car to do right... I have my last interview Monday... I'm thinking that I should take what little money I have saved and take Baby to the shop, I just want to wait until I hear from this Job first b/c if I get it then there we go A paycheck ... a way to fix my car .. and then get another one. I haven't already done that b/c I just really needed that money to stay on top of bills...
awwwwwwwwwwhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaww thats me screaming ...
kinda feel like crying but I told myself a while back that I won't sit down and cry about things but instead try to find a solution ... I am tempted bloggers
I hate going from feeling on top of the world to feeling down and out... I wish things would just go right for at least 1 Whole Week... I mean nothing going wrong. No car trouble, No disappointing news, No friend calling me whining and complaining about their less then perfect life ..as if mine is so awesome ...(thats for another blog). I know that life is going to be filled with downs...and that there will be ups...but yall I have been having alot of downs..
Ok enough of the pity party .. it's done and it will work out some way... some how ... it always does..and I always find a way.
Good news.. I'm still walking and feeling more confident in my ability to follow though on this weight journey everyday, my hair is napper then ever lol but I am so feeling it...at least on most days :) I'm good, I'm me and I'm alive, and with each new day I have the opportunity to make things better...Nothing better then that bloggers

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still

Just wanted to say that I'm still walking ...just haven't been blogging. And I'm no longer having issues with my foot and leg..guess I just needed to get used to it. My best friend and my G-ma have been going with me.. my classmate has not returned .. I don't have an issue with going alone..I don't want to give you that idea .. I just like the company. I am so excited about this journey .. and so happy that I still feel motivated to do this. in the past I have always stopped ... but I just feel like this time I can move forward .. I have not forgotten the pics.... it's coming ...I do still plan on moving my blogs about walking to another separate page.. The name of it is Fat Girl Walking .. url/ http://phatgirlwalkin.blogspot.com/ more then likely that will be the place I post up the pics.. My hair is doing really well ... I have really started to like it.

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Day-2

ok went walking again today this time with my sister.. who really just went to keep me company. I don't think my classmate is serious about doing this although she did talk a good game that first day. I'm disappointed in her but hey this is about my journey for me and not hers..I'll let her know that I'm here but other then that I can't force her to want this ...I asked her about walking tomorrow and even the next day but of course she "can't".."things to do" now bloggers she don't got no....yes don't got no lol... job just like I ain't got no job..so whats the problem...in the whole day you can't do something that will change your life with someone who also wants to make the change.. I don't know bloggers but I don't expect to see her at the track much or even again so it's just me trying to stay motivated by myself ...by the way my leg is still killing me lol...something is going on with my left foot.. I seem to be walking on the side of it instead of the way I'm 'pose to ... it's making my whole leg hurt....I really have to find out whats up with that b/c the pain is nothing nice. chanting you can do it

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From Perm to Natural

My natural cut

not the way people normally cut their hair when they make the jump but unlike most of my friends who are taking the jump My head is just to big to go that rout lol

Take my friend Tamara for example

She is just so working it with the mini fro...lol but her head is so much smaller thin mine lol

So this is the cut I'll be rockin while I go natural ... I will keep you posted on my hair journey bloggers

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Day 1- Walking

Ok so I finally started walking today and I feel so good about this. Its been a really loooooonnng time since I have even tried to diet..much less exercise... but I'm back in business. I went walking today with a friend of mine.. an old co-worker and new classmate, who's also plus sized. She's going though a divorce right now and she just really need a change..so this is her start.
Me? I'm just sick of being limited by my size. Sick of shopping for hours at select stores..only to still find nothing, sick of feeling tired at the smallest amount of walking... and simply sick of being this fat...I need a change and this is my start.
So wish me luck bloggers.. I so need to stick to it this time .. I will let you know how its going...
Oh I have also cut all my hair off and I'm going natural ..no perms.... omg the hair is a mess right now..pics coming soon.. I'll try to remember to start taking at lest one full body shot a month so you can see my rtprogress... maybe start up another blog about this journey I'm embarking on....My leg is K-I-L-L-I-N-G killing me...

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