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New laptop YAY!

And I am back in business. It's been a while since I blogged but I have so missed putting my thoughts down and simply writing about my day. Its a New Year yall and although 2011 was good I have hopes that 2012 will be awesome. I know that when a new year starts everyone is talking big about what they want and will do. My goal is to set realistic goals for my life. In my next blog I promise to get them down but right now it's 12 am and has been a long time since 7am. I am sleepy. (I have to work on my lameness this year.... Single, Young, Pretty and ...home. ... On a Sat.) Anyway I just had to come on and say something.

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Mr. picture man

I want her picture painted
like they used to do before cameras
but you don't have to truly capture her appearance
I want you to capture her soul
etch it across canvas so that it lives on for others to see
Mr.picture man choose a bright color to that they can see the smiles hiding inside
and a dark one to showcase her pain
I want you to paint her
maybe a blue for the tears that she has shed in this life
maybe a green to show the life she leaves behind
it doesn't have to resemble a person
but instead maybe a ray of colors that resemble her mind
I want you to paint her the way she is
no camouflage
I want to see the anger the disappointments, sadness,... hurt I want to her as she is
pick a yellow to show the brightness she has brought us all
possibly a red to show frustration
Mr.picture man I want you to paint her
can you show her love and selflessness her indifference and selfishness
I want this picture to be of her
I want to sit for hours and glaze upon it knowing that it is of someone beautiful
someone human
Mr. picture man I want her memory captured, her pictured painted



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Fall/Hopeless

I love fall bloggers, the colors, the wind, night chills and warm days. I really do love it. Fall kinda makes me go love crazy as well. I always want to be in a relationship during this time of year. I have all these ideas of the perfect fall date, picnics in the park, walks through the zoo, car rids in the country. Unfortunately my relationships always head south right before this time of year...  meaning dateless and single me. .. Maybe that's why I love the idea of fall love. Oh well maybe in the spring I can walk in the rain while holding his hand. *Hopeless Romantic
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HI ...LONG TIME...and all that jazz



I haven't written in a while I know but between work and class I just don't really have the time to think much less blog. I have so missed just putting down my thoughts. So how am I? Well to be honest  the summer was horrible for me all the way around... car trouble... hair trouble... fashion trouble ... I don't know something about 100 degree heat and no air does that to me BUT fall is here and I for one LOVE the fall. So new car check... hair experiments... check... and I'm working on the fashion. I am ready for... EVERYTHING. Still fat yall ... I'm always honest about that. Am I disappointed in me yeah BUT everyday is a new day to get better ... thinking about printing up an old friends pics or at least looking at them often to convince myself that its possible....Joining weight watchers soon, wish me luck. I imagine that WW is like AA for fat ppl..." Hello my name is Pamieka and I'm a foodaholic"
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Blog Award

I want to say thanks to lil miss Sauniya' for tagging me in this award and posting my link on her blog. Muah!


So the award comes with these rules:
1. Thank the person who tagged you and link their blog.
2. Put the Top 10 award logo on your blog.
3. List your top 10 cosmetics.
4. Choose 10 bloggers to tag, link their blogs and let them know

So although I love make-up I don't have a top 10 best. I just use a very small amount of stuff but here goes
I LOVE cover up it's the one thing in my make-up bag I can't live without

1. Black Opal flawless concealer for Ethnic Skin
2. A bronzer... I don't really have one that I think is better than any other I just have to have one that
    works for me
3. Cover girl eye shadow. I love a smoky eye with maybe a pink or pretty blue to blend it with... but I
    only do that for my night time face
4. Last but the very key for me is a pretty lip. It doesn't matter if its a nice cool mystic pink or a popping red
    or even a clear gloss I think your lips should always look ready for either a kiss or a photo
.... I also like to use pure Shea Butter before putting on make-up for dry skin and even make-up cover (not recommended for summer) it's also good w/o make-up or at night (not if you have problem skin or very oily skin
I know that I didn't really name any products but I don't have any that I just die for. As a girl on a budget I have learned that even though high end products are nice sometimes they aren't any better than the cheap stuff.

Shapely Louise

That good good blog

tha unpretentious narcissist

You don't like my Opinion thats fine

Beauty in rare form

creatively-soulful

Not 10 but ppl I look in on often... its been a while since I've had some blog time.
 Don't forget to check in on lil miss Sauniya'
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Not another day

So turns out it wasn't just another day I really enjoyed my birthday bloggers thanks to some good friends and some awesome family members and a soon to be family member. It wasn't all out or party all night it was just dinner and some conversation. It was nice. So 28....lol All I feel is a little bit more rushed to get school done and meet this wonderful man and handle my weight issue that is very present.
I talked to an ex recently and we're going to start walking together, the only problem is that I am very ok with him remaining an ex while he.... not so much. We shall see what happens bloggers... time for work .. Have a good day.
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Another day

So it's almost my birthday. I'm going to do a little thing with my friends on the date and the next weekend (since I couldn't get off this weekend) I'm going to New Orleans. Don't get me wrong bloggers I like N.O. and everything but to be honest I would rather spend my day at home with family, friends, some good food and a cake. Birthdays are not really my families thing we are a little wried that way... so my friends and I are going to go to a nice jazz club and than to a fun party.
So 28 bloggers and I know this is not New Years but I feel good about 28. For the first time in a while I have some real direction, I know where I want to go and I know (somewhat) how to get there. School is going really well and I'm enjoying knowing that I am doing really well and will soon be done. 

Enjoying your life is simply a matter of the way that you feel.   ... by IDK found it on the net and loved it
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...


I can't breathe when you're here
I loose my breath when you come around ...panting and unable to use words correctly because all that I want to say to you gets lost somewhere between my brain and my mouth I see only black when I see you because the anger that caused me to see red has gone so deep that I only see a dark void where you stood empty of feelings and emotions you make me sick my stomach begins to hurt at the mention of ya name my head begins to bang and my okay or happy day turns into one filled with pain... and yet I would never want to hurt you. see when I look at you I still see that little girl you used to be. So full of hope and laughter, so full of love ... and I miss that want that back not just for me but for you ... for these new lives that you have brought into the world.
I remember you before him... before you turned into her, before when your heart was filled with more than this one nothing ass....male. What happened to you? When did you become this insecure woman who needs a man to define you? when did simply being you stop being enough.
I hate the way I feel when I'm near you. I hate how you put my emotions in a spin of love,hate and indifference. I don't know what to say to you anymore because your thoughts are no loner just yours they are his. His favorite color is now yours, his habits are yours... his disloyalty is yours. I no longer believe in your promises... or your ability to care for anyone but him you have become her and just like her everything else and everyone else comes 3rd to his needs. I can't talk when you're near the tears that I refuse to let fall clog up my throat. The sadness of knowing that you will never change takes my voice.
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Friend


Words such as best-friend, bestie, bff and friend have become very popular. In my opinion too popular. When ever I hear someone say any of these words I always wonder how true they are.
I had very few friends until college, maybe about three people at one time or another whom I would call a friend. It wasn't until college that I really knew what that word entitled. My sister recently had a lunch date with her 'friends' including her 'bff' and didn't go because of money. Money has never stopped my friends and I from going out and having a good time. If they don't have the cash than lunch is on me and vice versa. I have the type of friends who send me money (without me asking or even saying a word about it) because my cell is off. I have the type of friends who stay in the hospital with me all night regardless of work and class. My friends have driven 30min back to the dorm to come and get me after they've gotten off work and 30min back to the city because I needed to go to the store. They've let me drive their car to work everyday, when I didn't have my own. They cried as many tears as I did at  my at my brothers and uncles funerals. They have been there and are still there. Money, no money, broken down cars, no car, laughter, sadness, disagreements, death, and life...they are there.  Life happens sometimes (babies, husbands, work, school, family..and disagreements) and we don't talk for weeks and yet we still are devoted to our friendship.
I'm not sure if people know what friendship really is... an extension of your family most times even closer
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Love Scale




Is it possible to be on equal footing in a relationship bloggers? A long time ago my older cousin told me it was better to be in a relationship with someone who loved you more than you loved them rather than the other way around. Is there no in between? Can we both not be equally in love? In my first experience with love I gave my all, my whole heart was laid bare, unfortunately I loved him more than he loved me. In every relationship since than I have been the one holding all the cards. Since the age of 23 I have always made sure that they loved me, wanted me, desired me far more than I did them. ... But none of those relationships worked. I always felt as if something was missing, and it was. My devotion to the relationship. I don't want a relationship that's one sided I want the whole freaking pie. So is it possible bloggers? Can two people be in a relationship where they are both giving 110% of emotion? Where they are both so into each other that the outside world disappear? Do balanced, equal, relationships exist?
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