Just Me

Weight update...life update

So .... my weight is the same I have not lost at all in the last 3 months the good news is that I have not gained so I'm still at 50lbs gone. I'm still determined in fact I'm more determined. I'm right now recovering from an infection that just got crazy bad. I've been under the weather since the start of July but didn't know about the infection until mid July. This illness has made me more determined to loose weight because I don't think it would have been as bad if I was smaller in fact I'm almost sure of it.  As a type 2 diabetic it's harder for my body to fight off an illness  and I have no doubt that if I was at a healthier size I wouldn't be a diabetic at all..   Anyway bloggers that's whats going on

10 years

What were your dreams in high school? What are they now? I recently went to my 10 year HS reunion, and let me tell you bloggers life today is not at all what I thought it would be 10 years ago. I guess I had dreams of just being ... different. A different size, a different career .... a different me. But high school was a long time ago and the real world is nothing like sitting in your room dreaming. The real world is full of valleys, mud-hills and every once in a while mountains. In other words there's always something or someone that you have to go under or around or even right though and often it's messy. Sometimes I'm sad that my life aren't those dreams that I dreamed through my HS years. That I'm not a famous writer (despite my spelling and other English errors) or that I haven't traveled to an exotic land. Adulthood has a way of killing dreams. It's so easy as a child to close your eyes and image the world as your oyster but than childhood ends and life happens. Illness, bills, jobs, death.... Life happens, and in the mist of it dreams get lost. But I realize that I still have today and if GOD is willing than I have tomorrow as well. So what are my plans for the next 10 years? I don't know exactly but I know that I want to be happy and I know that I don't want to be anything different than me.... just more me


Hold fast to dreams
For if dreams die
Life is a broken-winged bird
That cannot fly.
Hold fast to dreams
For when dreams go
Life is a barren field
Frozen with snow.
Langston Hughes