Solange Knowles

Ok .. I got this picture from facebook. Miss Jessie's, which is a brand of natural hair care products put it up.
So far it has gotten quite a few comments and so far the people say they love this picture, it's so pretty, she looks wonderful in it..they say. Bloggers .. REALLY! I hate this picture. I think that Solange is a pretty girl but this picture is so NOT. I don't like her hair, makeup, or outfit. I'm all for natural hair, after all I have it myself, but just because you're natural does not mean you always look pretty. As I have written before I think natural people are just a tad bit crazy... permed, straight, natural, whatever! its just hair people and it's ok to say when it's not cute. ..As I said it's not just the hair thats a problem for me in this pic in fact that is the least not cute thing. But come on yall do you think Solange looks her best in this photo or even pretty in this picture? Be honest.... *just sayin'

Now this is an older picture of her,right after the BC. This picture is beautiful.

Day 15

Ok I have so left the whole 30 day thing behind lol.. I will be getting back to it but the whole point of it was to blog everyday, which I have been doing ...for the most part.

So there is this guy that I'm kinda into... and this has been going on for a while... but I'm just not to sure about him. The dude is a cutie, very attractive, but I'm just not sure about...well him. I know him and yet I know nothing about him..if that makes sense. I know that hes into me but I'm just not sure if it's the way I want him to be... Yall please excuse my elementary 'does he like me' emotions right now :) but this is so where I'm at... what to do, what to do?? I had his number but I now have another cell and gave my old one to my nephew to play with .. so it's gone. I would so call him tomorrow but umm... yeah
I saw him tonight yall and I didn't even speak .. I'm just super crazy I know... Thursday I'ma be super cute and I hope I see him.... again excuse the 13 year old infatuation on my 27 year old self lol
Same book different page... me and the 'bestie' still not talking which means who do I tell about the dude lol.. its been almost a month ... crazy I know.. Whats really crazy is that she has no idea why I was so upset and other than the fact that shes stubborn, I have no idea what her issue is.. the situation is kinda funny and more than a little sad...but oh well bloggers life goes on...


Day 14- A picture
A few years ago I decided to not have sex anymore until I met this..Mr. Wonderful. Now to be completely honest with you all this decision had nothing to do with religion. I do believe that premarital sex is a sin and all but my decision ..sad to say was not made because of that. I made the decision because it just wasn't worth it anymore. Yeah I know how that sounds but I'm not against sex .. I love sex really I do, but what I don't love is the idea of sharing myself with someone who doesn't matter. I have never been the 'slut of the neighborhood' type of girl. I didn't loose my virginity until I was eighteen and even than I had this fairy tale in my head of happily ever after.. that idea went out the window however around the time that he told me he was married. After that ..long, dreadful, mishap, I did the whole sex for the sake of sex college thing.. that didn't last long nor was it all that grand a time .. and again even than I wasn't the 'slut of the campus'. The guy I decided on.. having fun with.. was four years younger than me .. 18 to my 22.. and although it was...ummmm lol and he was beautiful to look at... it was just not something that I could then or now see for myself. I just can't see the point of being intimate with someone when you know there will be nothing more then that. What is the point of that? There is 24 hours in a day and15-30 minutes of sex.. (an hour or 2 max.. because lets get real joking about all night, all day sex is fun and all but Come On!...) is not enough to base a relationship on. Another reason I decided to not have sex for just the sake of sex is because I realize that I could never be happy with just that. I need phone calls and dates, conversations and laughs... I need the relationship. Not just any relationship but one that I think could last. There is just no way I see myself having sex with a dude that I can't even see in my tomorrows.. to me thats stupid.  Lets not even get on the health risks that are involved with just random sex... I like life.. I enjoy pain free, medicine free days... Anyway all this was said to simply say... I so miss yeah I know what I just typed and that still stands. I'm not about to go trolling for booty lol but I .. so...miss

Day 13

Secret Desires

More then anything else this world has to offer, I want a family. Not just any kind of family but a good family, and I want to be the best at having that. I want to be a wife and a mother. I want a husband who makes me smile and forget my worries. A man who's strong and loving.. and honest. Someone whom I can laugh with, talk with. I tend to be very hard on guys but that's only because I know what kind of man I want and it has become to easy to point out the 'not hims' and far to hard to find the One. But to be honest with you I'm not all that much in a rush to get married, I know more unhappy married people then I do happy married people and being unhappy is unacceptable for me. Two happy minuets shared with the right man is wroth more then fifty unhappy years spent with the wrong one. Before I go on with this I want you to know that I don't think that marriage is just good times and laughs.. I know that it takes work that's why I'm not in a rush. There are so many people getting married just to say 'I'm married' ... that won't be me. I want to be happy. I want a man who is able to make a commitment and who is ready to handle all my craziness. At 27 with everyone around me getting married I'm thinking about marriage more then ever but its not over powering my thoughts. I do believe that it will happen one day when its right.
You know what I want even more than a husband? I want kids. I want sons who look like their father and beautiful daughters with big eyes. I think I have always wanted to be a mother, even before I knew what it took to be one. I just don't think there could be anything better than having this little person who is so much like you and yet so different in every way love you more than anything. I don't think it's easy in fact I think it's the hardest thing in the world to do, but I also think the title of mother is more important and more valuable than any other title you could possibly have.

Day 12.....Oct. 23

they say time heal all wounds
but this cut bleeds daily
it's so deep that you can see within
and every time it begin to stitch
I remember
and the years fall away
months feel like minuets
and then
years feel like seconds
I miss you the way flowers miss the rain
slowly withering away
It'll be alright they said
but what do you do when alright never comes?
how do you cope when there is no going back?
and to move forward means leaving pieces of your heart behind?
I cry for you
tears fall from my eyes and run down my cheeks
I .... I miss you
there's a empty place inside that you use to fill
and my mind is consumed with only thoughts of you
I don't know how to...
to let time heal this ..
I don't know if..
time can heal this
No matter how long I wait
I won't hear you laugh again
I won't hear your voice.. again
tell me
somebody... tell me
How does time heal death.

Day 12- How you found out about Blogger and why you made one:-- My aunt told me about blogger and I liked the idea of it. I'm always writing down my feelings anyway so I said why not.

Day 11

 Picture of you

my new do


So guess what I got...just guess......
another freakin ticket. I mean OMG police find someone else ...WHO HAVE COMMITED A CRIME to mess with.
So ok turns out one of my freakin break lights were out .. yall I was so screaming... like 4real... so how about my insurance card expired a month ago .. and ok I should have known but hey I freakin didn't b/c hey I DIDN'T... so now I have this HIGH ticket I can't afford to pay.  Life yall just ... life... last night it was killing me but today I'm just like ok my bad ... deal with it, and pay up.. which is what I'm going to do.
I have nothing against the police I mean they are there for a reason .. we need them ... but come on can't yall get someone other than harmless me who was simply coming from class. Ok plans for today update my insurance card, check my lights and go buy a new one and pray that a police don't stop me on the way there.

it's now 8 hrs later in my car to go... and guess what ...guess the freak what?

Day 10

Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

I love music.. all music. their is a song from just about every genres that I could pick out and say 'hey that's my jam' :) Happy, Sad, Bored, Mad... it's all the same for me I don't have a certain type of music or just one song that I listen to. I like nice and easy stuff for the most part. anything with a nice beat and lyrics that make sense, and a artist that can really sing .. or play, and I am on cloud 9.  if you're on the blog then you can hear the play-list and that should give you an idea
** India Arie
** Anthony Hamilton
** Alicia Keys
*** Toni Braxton
*** Will Downing
*** Joe
**** Anita Baker
**** Glenn Jones
**** Kirk Whalum
the list is endless
when I'm hyped then I need some hype music, some club bangers...but those times are rare. for the most part I'm a nice and easy type of girl

Day 09

Something you’re proud of in the past few days

ummm this is kinda hard b/c I don't know if I'm proud of anything in recent days.....I've got nothing lol.... wait.. I'm so happy 'proud' that I got a B in my American history class.. and I'm proud of me .. I can so feel myself becoming more...ummm just more me :)

Day 08

Short term goals for this month and why

♥ Resolve issues with a friend
Y----it just need to be over...
♥ Get this hair done
Y---- I need a new look
♥ Study-Study-Study
Y----- I so want As in these 3 classes
♥ I need to start back walking
Y------ I'm fat
♥ Look for a new JOB
Y------ I need money .NOW!!
♥ go hang out with my niece
Y---- it's been too long since we had a girls day
♥ write something  (poetry)
Y---- b/c I want to lol
Y--- because this is the way I want to live my life happy, loving who I am and with smiles that turn into laughter every step of the way

Day 07

 A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

This is my grandmother.

Day 06

Favorite super hero and why

My favorite super hero is Batman. Now I know it's some Superman fans out there who are like WHAT! lol In a super dude fight I do believe that Superman would win, after all he has all those cool super powers :)*white moment* But when it comes to who of the two I admire most it's hands down Batman. After all Batman choose his life as a super hero, he wasn't born into it, he saw that bad guys needed to be stopped in his city and he got it done. He didn't have to fight crime he came from a wealthy background.. he had plenty of choices. He choose his path. Now I know you can say the same for all.. or most super heroes but come on they all had theses powers... the only decision they had was to be good guy or bad guy. Batman had to be smart, after all he wasn't born with all those abilities. He had to work hard and come up with ideas and gadgets. He's a man I could put on a pedestal. In life we all have hard decisions to make I like to think that I would make the 'batman' choice in life. Work hard, fall in love, and fight the bad guys.

Day 05... sorta

 A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Well right b4 I started this 30 blog thing I talked about going to New Orleans and put up some pics... so today I just want to put up this song that I love by Lifehouse. It's an old song but hey like I said I love it..take a listen

Everything by Lifehouse

Day 04

 A habit that you wish you didn’t have

well I wish I didn't eat my emotions ...
I wish I was more organized

Day 03

 A picture of you and your friends

Day 02

  A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

Dear.... Friend
I don't even really know how to start this letter, I guess by telling you that I'm hurt.. that you hurt me.  You a person that I have come to expect love from,hurt me. My feelings have been stomped on by you my heart broken by and I don't know what words to use to make you understand how I feel right now. I don't know if you even care to know how I feel, but I'm going to write this letter anyway because I need this. I need to release this because it simply need to be said ... or in this case written.
I'm hurt by your disregard of my feelings, I'm hurt because you discussed me with other people... if you felt that their was an issue than you should have come to me in a reasonable manner. I'm hurt because I don't think my friendship ever really mattered to you. I know that I can be a little crazy but I value my friends, I always have. I hold friendship in high regard because I don't think it's easy to come by, not honest, real friendship. I'm hurt because..... wait I'm angry
I'm mad because, I valued you as a friend... I'm mad because I deserve friends who really care about me... I'm mad b/c I should have friends who trust me ... and in the span of  a few minuets I saw and realized how inconsiderate of my feelings you were. I'm mad because you raised your voice, got rude, and disrespected me all for NOTHING. Their was absolutely no reason for you to be mad at me, but by the end of you rant their was every reason for me to be mad at you... to be hurt by you. 20 minutes of silence in a car is nothing, compared to ...well shit who cares... I'm actually over this but since this blog called for a recent incident this one was it ...this letter is at an end

Day 01

 A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

1 I don't trust easily
2 I use poems to express what I can’t simply say
3 It’s hard for me to forgive
4 I write erotic stories and poetry
5 Tomorrow frightens me
6 I want to write something that people will read... newspaper, magazine, books
7 I can't stand people consistently telling me what to do
8 I like to smile
9 I believe that in life we all have the option to experience happiness more then any other emotion
10 I love to read ..can read 6 books in the span of one weekend (romance)
11 I don’t like when people complain a lot, lie, or, make a lot of excuses.
12I try to smile even on my bad days
13I don't expect a lot from people, but feel that I deserve more then I get
14I'm at a point in my life where I only want to surround myself with people who care about me
15  I have decided not to have sex again until I get married

30 Day Blog challenge

ok I got this idea from another blogger. I want to blog everyday but I often don't. While reading her blog I found this blog challenge that calls for a 30 day, everyday blog. The blogs are listed below. Hopefully I pull through and do this daily.

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

Day 02- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

Day 03- A picture of you and your friends

Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have

Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to

Day 06- Favorite super hero and why

Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why

Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days

Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

Day 11- Picture of you

Day 12- How you found out about Blogger and why you made one a poem..Oct.23

Day 13- You secret desires
Day 14- A picture of you and your family

Day 15- A picture of something that inspires you...Why?

Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have

Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them

Day 20- Your ideal mate

Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else

Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents

Day 25- What I would find in your bag

Day 26- What you think about your friends

Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge

Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned

Day 30- Who are you?

idea taken from

Will Downing - Sorry I

New Orleans-

Went to New Orleans for the weekend with two of my friends for one of their birthdays.. and of course it was fun. We walked the streets of the French Quarter and with the rest of the people we partied til dawn. :) if you have never been I seriously suggest you take a trip out. For me it was fun, different, neat and weird all at once. This was my second time going.