Day 13

Secret Desires

More then anything else this world has to offer, I want a family. Not just any kind of family but a good family, and I want to be the best at having that. I want to be a wife and a mother. I want a husband who makes me smile and forget my worries. A man who's strong and loving.. and honest. Someone whom I can laugh with, talk with. I tend to be very hard on guys but that's only because I know what kind of man I want and it has become to easy to point out the 'not hims' and far to hard to find the One. But to be honest with you I'm not all that much in a rush to get married, I know more unhappy married people then I do happy married people and being unhappy is unacceptable for me. Two happy minuets shared with the right man is wroth more then fifty unhappy years spent with the wrong one. Before I go on with this I want you to know that I don't think that marriage is just good times and laughs.. I know that it takes work that's why I'm not in a rush. There are so many people getting married just to say 'I'm married' ... that won't be me. I want to be happy. I want a man who is able to make a commitment and who is ready to handle all my craziness. At 27 with everyone around me getting married I'm thinking about marriage more then ever but its not over powering my thoughts. I do believe that it will happen one day when its right.
You know what I want even more than a husband? I want kids. I want sons who look like their father and beautiful daughters with big eyes. I think I have always wanted to be a mother, even before I knew what it took to be one. I just don't think there could be anything better than having this little person who is so much like you and yet so different in every way love you more than anything. I don't think it's easy in fact I think it's the hardest thing in the world to do, but I also think the title of mother is more important and more valuable than any other title you could possibly have.

1 comment

Traci Lavette | October 29, 2010 at 2:53 PM

You are on the right track! Do NOT get married just for the sake of getting married. A relationship should be healthy, where BOTH people are bringing 100% to the table. I am not with the whole we make 1 thing because that means 50% for each side. I'm with we make 2 - with both being 100%! So yes when it's right do it and not before then. There are so many women that think until they have a ring on their finger, they are not worth much and then they lose sight of what's really important - happiness. So you are definitely doing the right thing and more power to you!