loved you

The winter stepped in and took away my sun
Brought back my pain
The cloudless sky was no longer a reality
The rain like ice fell onto my body, into my heart
And long silent tears fall down my face
The flowers you once gave me have long past died and only weeds remain
You left and took my heart, mind, and soul with you
You left and now I almost hate you
Almost hate myself for allowing you inside my head, my heart, me
I almost can..t carry on
You almost killed me inside
I almost let you
Today the sun is back
Today there are new flowers that are blooming
Today I learned to live without you
Today I love me more then I lovED you.
© Pamieka Adams